Thursday, February 15, 2018

My Body is Ugly and Perfect

My son and I walk past shop windows and I catch an accidental glimpse of myself. Bad posture, bra straps showing my backfat (there ain’t no sucking in backfat), a too-big belly, too-large breasts and too many wrinkles on my face. Sigh. My Body is Ugly and Perfect. I refrain from flipping my ugly body […]

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Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Love

I love you, my two littlest loves. To my eldest, I love you for your courage, your kindness for your affectionate nature. I love you even for your stubbornness, your needs that must be met, am grateful for your myriad ways of expressing them. I love you for your passion for horses, the gentle way […]

Thursday, February 8, 2018

10 Things That Are Better Than Being In Love (or come close)

I was six, the first time I fell in love. Not much is better than being in love. His name was Ricky, and he lived next door. We hid behind the bushes to share secrets and imagined futures. His was to become a fireman who only helped people and didn’t hurt them. His dad was […]

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Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Back to Normal

He gently snores in recovery as I adjust the blankets around his bare shoulder, the rough cotton gown that afforded him some modicum of privacy having slipped down his chest. I carefully watch the plastic apparatus in his mouth that keeps his tongue from blocking his airway as he breathes, see him slowly working his […]

Thursday, February 1, 2018

The Difference Between Fear and Worry, and the Fear of Dying

My first thought about this week’s Finish the Sentence Friday prompt of “I’m afraid of/that…” was that I could write about my fear of dying. But then I thought about the difference between fear and worry, and what that means. My fear of spiders and other all bugs (except fireflies because they are awesome and […]

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Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Change

“Zach, Mommy’s taking care of Justin” I call to my littlest love as he once again requests juice and pretzels, a snack he is perfectly capable of getting for himself (but it’s so much more fun to ask mommy to get it for him). I turn to go back into Justin’s bedroom and find my […]

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Thank the Earth: Photos, Past Lives, and Scuba Diving in Turks & Caicos

I have far fewer photos in albums than the 26,942 that live in my phone. Most of my digital ones begin in 2007, which makes sense – that’s when the first iPhone was released. Before then, we were stuck dropping off a roll of film and waiting to pick up the envelope of memories. Most […]

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